So Ridiculous™

I feel like there is a load of bricks weighing on my chest…

anticipation, dread, fear, peace, justice, anger, despair…all a swirling maelstrom…

and in the midst of all this?

a tiny bit of hope

perhaps

just

enough

…when you’ve become the monster?

Heaven on Earth
We need it now
I’m sick of all of this
Hanging around
Sick of sorrow
Sick of pain
Sick of hearing again and again
That there’s gonna be
Peace on Earth

Where I grew up
There weren’t many trees
Where there was we’d tear them down
And use them on our enemies
They say that what you mock
Will surely overtake you
And you become a monster
So the monster will not break you

And it’s already gone too far
Who said that if you go in hard
You won’t get hurt

Jesus could you take the time
To throw a drowning man a line
Peace on Earth
Tell the ones who hear no sound
Whose sons are living in the ground
Peace on Earth
No whos or whys
No-one cries like a mother cries
For peace on Earth
She never got to say goodbye
To see the color in his eyes
Now he’s in the dirt
That’s peace on Earth

They’re reading names out over the radio
All the folks the rest of us won’t get to know
Sean and Julia, Gareth, Anne and Breda
Their lives are bigger, than any big idea

Jesus can you take the time
To throw a drowning man a line
Peace on Earth
To tell the ones who hear no sound
Whose sons are living in the ground
Peace on Earth

Jesus this song you wrote
The words are sticking in my throat
Peace on Earth
Hear it every Christmas time
But hope and history won’t rhyme
So what’s it worth?
This peace on Earth

Peace on Earth
Peace on Earth
Peace on Earth

I thought this day would never come.I’m happy that bastard finally got what was coming to him.I’m sick to my stomach that I’d be this excited at someone’s death.Most of all, I’m incredibly sad that although America has reached this “final goal”.Titus is still lost to us, as are so many other beloved souls.I am comforted that these grievous losses are not forever.I know we will all be together again, in His presence.

How disturbing is it when all of your craziness, anxiety, insecurities, and emotional defects in general are on full display for the world to see?

FML

I love this picture so much! My Sammy was so teeny-tiny back then – all scrunched up in the couch cushions!

‘dumb face’

—only a mother could love it—

Christmas 2006

I can’t believe he is actually wearing a collar!  Those days are long gone, that’s for sure!

Begging for some help to get one of his toys out…prolly the shark or sparkly ball!!!

!!!DB!!! Miss you and my kitties very much!!!

I.HEART.STEFON.

These are the last pictures of the house being empty – we are moving in!

We are scheduled to close on May 28th! Trying to keep totally focused and not going crazy shopping for new house stuff – fingers crossed for no crazy

speed bumps! Just 13 more days!!!

A really new neighborhood – but very exciting!!!

Few pictures follow – more to come after our New Homeowner Orientation this Thursday!

The old versions of the pictures are being replaced with a slideshow in the next post!

That’s one of our Lennar Sales Consultants, walking towards the other gate…Hi Lee Anne!

It’s a crazy experience – really stressful and a tremendous learning experience -

I’m excited and anxious 99% of the time – I can only concentrate on praying that whatever His will for my life – this whole house-buying process included – whatever His will, I submit.

she’s pretty cool…huh…